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Books for the Dented Self

Neela Vaswani, Spalding MFA Faculty, Fiction

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I would venture that most writers find reading healing. Find solace in words and craft and the quiet of turning pages. I usually feel that way. But at various points in my life, when I’ve been in need of healing—from trauma or loss or illness—I’ve found myself incapable of reading. I can’t get my eyes to move horizontally across sentences. And the literary fiction I normally find comforting feels inedible.


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In the past ten years, in times of trouble, I’ve turned to Scandinavian mysteries. Characters who don’t mince or waste words. Live stark, ragged lives. Stories set in dark (or brilliantly lit, depending on the season), cold places. Dogs. Despair. Food descriptions that turn my Hindu vegetarian stomach. A clear moral dilemma. A crime to be solved. Wrongs to be righted. People wading through their worst moments in bleak emotional landscapes.

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I haven’t read the more popular Scandinavian mysteries like The Dragon Tattoo series. I

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Usually, as a reader, I’m drawn to work that upends the idea of genre and plot. But when I’m low, plot and genre are the only balm. Knowing that some kind of justice will be served by the last page. That good will trump evil. There’s a lesson here for me as a writer who doesn’t write in the style or genre that most comforts me: something about human trauma, about the essential value of story.

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I always read with a pencil and use a shorthand in margins: one dot for something interesting or powerful, two dots for something I can use for teaching, three dots for something I can use for writing. I do this even in library books, though I erase all my marks before returning the books. Since my MFA and PhD, it’s harder for me to read in the way I did as a child, to shut down my writer-teacher brain and melt into pages. But I don’t read Scandinavian mysteries with a pencil; I let their power and craft go unmarked. In strained times, when I feel least myself as a reader and most myself as an individual, I reconnect with the fundamental pleasure of reading, with escapism and comfort and connection. And it soothes my dented self.

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What do you read when in pain or post-trauma? What will your body and mind allow? What brings you back to yourself, and why?

 

Neela Vaswani is the author of Where the Long Grass Bends (short stories), You Have Given Me a Country (mixed-genre memoir), Same Sun Here (middle-grade novel, co-author), and the forthcoming picture book, This is My Eye. She is the recipient of the American Book Award, a PEN/O.Henry Prize, the ForeWord Book of the Year Gold Medal, the New York Public Library Champion of Literacy Award, and other literary honors. She won a Grammy for her narration of I Am Malala: How One Girl Stood Up for Education and Changed the World. She’s been teaching at Spalding since 2001 and lives in NYC with her family.

 

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